I feel like I want to cry over everything right now! I put the damn laundry card down and a second later it's gone no where to be found!? I look everywhere for the damn thing and it's no where. I feel like I'm going crazy and everyday some other shit storm starts and I have to deal with it. I have haven't learned anything else from having Endometriosis the one thing I have learned is that relationships are hard! Having to manage your illness, feeling like shit, trying to get through the day and then you have to deal with what ever your spouse puts on you. I feel like I haven't been myself in a long time, I feel like pain and Endometriosis are consuming, I can't do thing I used to be able to and be as active in life and friendships as I like to be! I sit or lay in pain and feel sorry for myself because I'm so tired and sore! I miss being young and energetic.
Today I make a change, I will not longer apologize for feeling ill. I won't feel sorry for saying no. It's too hard and not logical to please everyone. I need to make sure I am happy first, I need to feel good before I can make anyone else feel good. I so badly want to have success in every relationships but sometimes you need to be selfish and do what's right for you. Not everything is going to work out as much as we'd like it too.
I have to learn to communicate how I feel better. I get some emotional and mixed up in my feelings that I just end up crying. Does the Endometriosis make me more emotional or am I just emotional.