I've battled depression for many years even before the diagnosis. Its weird how lonely you can be with a disease like this. Yes many women supposedly have it but are they talking about it? Do they feel ashamed? Inadequate? How do you feel? I know that I often feel as though no one understand. How could they? They can't feel what I feel. On the outside I look normal enough, but on the inside my body is a war zone. Kristen against Kristen if you will. There is not enough research done about this and no one is speaking up. Is it because we are "just girls". Periods are supposed to be painful. We are child bearers we should be accustomed to pain and get used to being miserable. Why? Why? Why? Are we not feeling enough pain to be noticed? Technically its not fatal so it's not important enough to cure?
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In March of 2011 I felt an excruciating pain in my pelvic area, I had my period at that time and have always had painful periods so i figured it was the same, but as the day went on I was unable to bare this insane pain. I left work and went home, as I lay there in my bed this pain only seem to get worst. After several hours of dealing with the pain I decided it was time I made my way to the Emergency Room. I knew that this was serious because I absolutely hate hospitals (I have a phobia of vomit, weird I know). I waited just over an hour before I was seen and they asked me if I was pregnant as they do with most women's pain in that area. I knew for sure that I was not. They ran tests including x-ray, CT, internal and external ultrasounds. They had seem fluid in my pelvis and told me I had PID or Pelvic Inflammatory Disease. When the vaginal swab came back with no viruses they sent me to a gynecologist.
I saw the gynecologist within a month or two after the ER visit and she told me she thought that I had Endometriosis and wanted to schedule a Laparoscapy. October 14th, 2011 I went to the hospital for my surgery. The surgery was roughly 45 minutes. During the surgery she had had to cut through many adhesions to even see what she needed to.
Upon waking up I was told that it was stage 4 Endometriosis. Great... with the little research I had done prior to the surgery I realized I had a life long battle in front of me. |
AuthorMy name is Kristen McRobie, I was diagnosed with Stage 4 Endometriosis when I was 21. Archives
March 2018
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